sansan

i alwaz believe im here with a reason, im livin my life for someone(s) else.. in my life…

things havent been ez since e day i understood how to feel… grandma was great! she’s my habour.. but she’s long gone.. miss her dearly. mum had been really tough.. cuz of her own sad life. i couldn’t understand her until i turned..16?  e kids’ were a chore! stolen my precious freedom durin teenhood, i can never get it back, but hey, i hv never regreted.. they r my little treasures in life.. i tot i’ll never know my elder sis(s) as my flesh n blood sibs, but i was wrong! blood’s thicker than water indeed. and dad..? who?

once i’ve been thru bad times, experiences i need not gain but did, i learn to appreciate, n tats when life seems more meaningful, purposeful. when i know i cant juz go away cuz i dun live my life juz for myslf. i naturally persevere, i wun gv up. im not noble nor magnanimous, im juz doin wat makes me happy, happier in one way than e other..

met many along my course of life so far, more good than rotten.. tats luck. rite ones, bad time.. rite time, wrong ones.. juz cant fix e pcs rite.. no more time? any one!

life’s abt goin thru as many situations as possible, experiences… i live only once, why live so cautiously? i’d never know if i never try.. take chances.